I'll Try Anything Once

Ten decisions shape your life,
you'll be aware of 5 about,
7 ways to go through school,
either you're noticed or left out,
7 ways to get ahead,
7 reasons to drop round,
when i said ' I can see me in your eyes',
you said 'I can see you in my bed',
that's not just friendship that's romance too,
you like music we can dance to,

Sit me down,
Shut me up,
i'll calm down,
and i'll get along with you.

The Strokes, this song, I'll Try Anything Once, I'm addicted.
* correction... is the song called you only live once?


This morning at breakfast an older man asked me "Hey honey, where you get those beautiful blue eyes from?" I had barely noticed him and he was already asking me. Fuck. Why?
It's like torture. The one thing everyone notices is my eyes. All I said was, "Thank you," as I kept walking through the doors, a side smile in disbelief.
Then he was so shocked that I kept walking. He asked again, "From your Dad?" as if it were really bothering him that he didn't know. Both of my parents have brown eyes. I guess I get them from my grandparents, but I wouldn't know.

Creepy as fuck. Leave me alone...you know?

When I woke up this morning, way early, and I was thankful. One of those rare times when you can wake up in the morning and not be annoyed or half asleep even though you are running on about 3 hours of sleep. It was just, pleasant feeling. I told myself I was most thankful for my healthy body. With all of its imperfections and highlights, I was happy to be in this body. It's a great thing to feel when you are 18 and alone.

I'm going home in the morning. I've got about ten boxes to go home, for a 3 week vacation. I plan on bringing back 7. I've got too much stuff so I'm going to get rid of some of it. Riding back with my brother. It's been too long since I last saw him. God, it's good to have family.

Happy Holidays :]


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Lost Love

When your heart feels empty, fill your brain for awhile.

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Marion Bridge

Yann Tiersen & an indie film.
Spending the evening through the thin windows,
Hidden from the red, winter sky.

I want to understand.
Captivating stories, ending happily,
Isn't that easy.
After the credits we have to keep on.
Wouldn't it be easier if it just ended panning the setting sun?
Trudging through the rest of our Hours.

Large and small.
I want the world but I want serenity.

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"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

Je Voudrais Bien Avoir

I would like a cat. Very much so. Specifically one that doesn't pester my birds. Then I'd like to finally get a nose ring. Also I'd read more books. And tone my stomach. How about a big leap and finally pay to get my hair professionally colored... and cut at the same time haha.

Happy December. Let's be thankful now.


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